// fear is the heart of love
this entry spoke of a dear untitled girl who cared for me and i lose her to another guy..because i took too long to decide if i was ready for commitments..the reason why i was afraid because i was hurt so many times before
she was always there for me when i needed her..i should've taken my chances cause i can feel it in the air..see her pretty face, makes my kneels go weak, my heart goes on rapid fire when i run my fingers through her hair.she holded on to me for 2year knowing that we'll one day be lovers..i knew she was right when she told me how she felt about us..because the feeling was mutual i can feel it too
i ask god why? why can't i be stronger and have the courage to take the next step? i really wanted to but i simply just can't do it..she was my first priority in life..at this very moment i feel like my heart have been grip outta my chest and the pain is unbearable..now that she's gone..i wish i could give her everything..i dunno if i'll ever see her again..i was foolish enough to think that this won't affect me..but i was wrong..it hurts like fuck
what were you thinking fidel?
why are you saying all these now? and...
why does love have to be so painful everytime.
now she's out of reach, out of sight, i'm learning to pick up the pieces. i'm trying to move on..i don't hate her because i've already lose her as a lover..i can't lose her as a friend..i want her to remember me with all the beautiful memeries we shared together and not with hatred and bitterness.
i'll never regret loving you
the chemistry between us it could distory this place <3 | 
